Literally physically sick of this - MT

These are the last 3 days of my notice. I thought I would be elated. Instead, I had a really really bad day (again). I have always done well, been in the business forever. I learned to hang on here a year, rarely if ever paid mind to the nasty e mails because I kept my nose to the grindstone. I managed to get bonus almost every payperiod the last several months, and last time got the big bonus.  

All of a sudden out of nowhere about 3 weeks ago I suddenly sucked so bad as an MT it seems I had become Dr. Jekyll to Mr. Hyde. Out of the blue I received in the wee morning hours on Saturday an e mail from my boss warning of my impending termination for bad quality which had sunk from above 99.5% to 98%. She was going to call me.  

That week I was on pins and needles. I had no idea how I could have fallen so fast and so quickly as my work habits or nose to grindstone had not changed. I had no stress. I still kept my productivity. I had the same dictators over a year, the same account. But for some unknown reason I was in trouble. And I am a single mom going back to school. This may mean I could lose my livelihood.

The next week it got worse. Threatening e mails. I did not know what to think except that I was going to lose my job. I sent many, many resumes out. Over the next week I had several interviews. Finally I took another job and gave notice.

Then it got worse...

I did not think it could. I suddenly had no work. I was told that I was not living up to my schedule and I had to explain why (I had not been in or out any differently except for the OOW, as I would alert, but would not check back). I found out I lost bonus for the payperiods for the next quarter. Suddenly a 400.00 check went to 200.00 per week. My income was drastically reduced. Last week I made 100.00 after I gave notice b/c it was like I was cut off.

Today, I have just 3 days left. I have about 40.00 in the bank and I will have to let my cell phone go for food (pay as you go). What once seemed ok, suddenly and without much reason my job was now going down in flames and even though I have another to go to... I can't make it until the next job financially. 

I see people are getting notified on their ADT that the bonus will be paid to them. I had gotten 99.6% and never put more than 10% to QA until my account went to 100% no blank policy about 3 weeks ago. I look on my ADT and no check will be cut for me. No bonus for last quarter.  

Today I really wanted to cry. I know if I went to a psychiatrist, he or she would not say I was crazy. But I would want explained to me what has happened in the last 3 to 4 weeks. I went from a 20 or 25K a year job down to about 8K or less. I went from paying my car and food bills and phone to almost losing my car, having to cut off the cell, and very little until we get paid again on my final check.

I cried all day today. Friends say I should be happy I am out of here. But truly I am depressed. Why couldn't it all work out? I tried 100%. Now, I am 100% broke and still wondering why.

Thanks for listening. Maybe others will see this and see they are not alone. But all I keep saying is, "I should never have trusted this company to feed my family, why why did I trust them??!"