I'm so screwed - AgentMT

I've been an MT for 30 years.  I'm a good MT.  90% of my time, I've worked as an IC.  In the last few months, however, the companies I contracted with have had such an unpredictable ebb and flow of work that I decided maybe I should go with a company as an employee.  I was hired by Mmodal.  They were great.  CCM awesome.  Accounts great.  So what is the problem you wonder?  I can't work on a strict schedule.  I was supposed to work 10-7.  I was only making about $12-14 an hour, which meant I had to do some part time work to be able to support myself.  As an IC, I was able to work 8-9 hours, and when there was work, made decent money.  But I was able to work a few hours in the morning, take a break, a few hours early afternoon, another hour or two off, then finish up late afternoon early evening. 

But with this new job, I am so fried by 7 p.m. (and getting up at 7 so I can do my part time work and I'm not a morning person), that I literally was going to bed as soon as I was done work.  The stress started taking a toll and caused some issues for me that just exacerbated the issues.

My IC positions have been filled.  Instead of making $180-200 a day, I'm making $120-140, which isn't going to be enough to make ends meet.

I'm fearful for myself.  I can't handle the "it's 10:15 where are you" (and before anyone yells at me, I'm NOT blaming Mmodal.  If I'm supposed to be on at 10:00 I would expect me to be on at 10 - I just need a break at 10 after doing my 3 hours in the morning on the other job).

I'm a great production worker, it's all I've known most of my adult life.  Schedules?  Not so good at.  Thanks for letting me vent.