You are not crazy! I think it takes a very strong person to realize that something is a little off and an absolutely wonderful mother to be worried about how this could effect her kids. I think you are doing the right thing by seeing your doctor. You will get it figured out. Until then, do the best you can and know that your mother loves you and wants to help. Believe me I understand your issues with your mother - I have similar ones - but I know she loves me, as your mother does you. Stay strong!