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I see this isn't a very frequently used board, but I'll put this here in case someone sees it.
I've been an MT for quite a few years. Not only has my job has become unbearable due to admin changes, but I also now have CTS that's so bad that I can't even write anymore. I have crappy insurance, so I can't afford my deductible for surgery, but I also can't afford the time away from work for surgery anyway.
To top it off, my supervisor has made it clear to me repeatedly (I have written proof) that I am utterly incompetent, and has used many, many words to describe my character as well as my ability to do my work. I have OFFERED for this person to terminate me, and they do not want to. I don't understand this at all. I don't quit because I need money too badly and, honestly, there is no other job I can do at this point, given my hands.
I have just about no life. My work is very difficult (or else this supervisor is right and I'm incompetent), the quality of dictators is poor, and I have to cancel out of commitments constantly because my work gets in the way. Part of it is probably extreme burnout, but part is also due to working very slowly with CTS and also just simply struggling with about 80% or more ESL dictators.
I don't have any social support; I don't have any friends or family. I am self supporting.
So, I'm finding myself struggling with depression. Therapy? Meds? Not covered by insurance.
I'd love some feedback about what other people would do in this situation. I'm pretty scared. |
