...if you were on a regular antidepressant like Prozac, Lexapro, or Zoloft, and just take Ativan as needed.
I don't know what kind of visitation rights your husband has, but if he has court-ordered visitation, then you need to start documenting exactly what is happening when the children are over there. If they come home with bruises or any other visible injuries, take pictures. Ask them what happened while they were there and take notes. Then take this information to your attorney or to Family Court and ask that his visitation rights either be revoked or restricted to supervised visitation only.
As for his calling in the middle of the night - hang up immediately and then unplug the phone. The more you interact with him, the more he is going to try to worm his way back into your life.
I started taking Prozac when my son was about 4 years old (he's 20 now). It really helped to stabilize my moods and helped me to be able to take care of him better. It sounds like you are in a bad situation. There is nothing wrong with seeking help when you need it. But you're right, Ativan is not something you want to take when you have kids to take care of. There are other alternatives. You just need to seek them out.
If you need someone to talk to about all of this, please feel free to email me. I've got broad shoulders, good for crying on. |