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He was not like this when we were dating or first married - now after 14 years of marriage, all he can think about is hunting and fishing and training his hunting dog. He has built a barn in the back yard, refuses to move to a subdivision, keeps dead ducks for training his dogs in the fridge in his barn, has recently built a pigeon cage and regularly goes out before work to a pigeon trap and brings pigeons home, which he keeps in the cage unti he is ready to kill them for training his dog. I know, I know, a lot of people do this, but I don't want it in my yard and my life! He gets ticks on himself and leaves them until he is ready to pluck them off (yet wants to sleep in the bed with me). He has piles of junk around the barn outside and the yard looks awful. He absolutely refuses to even consider moving even though no one else wants to live here. He has camoflauge stuff all over the house and carport, hanging there drying, etc. He is also mean to the dogs. A couple of days ago one tried to come in the house and he kicked it - hard - so we got into an argument about that.
At this point I cannot even stand for him to touch me because I think of him as such an inhumane and gross person. But he asks me not to divorce him, and I do love him in a way. He has a professional job, is not a bad father. But to me he seems just so cruel and nasty. He is also critical of me, not very nice to me. He has his good points too. I'm so confused. Wondering if I am just shallow. |
