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 I am sick with a bad cold or maybe the flu, not sure, so I know I am more emotional because of that...but my husband made breakfast this morning, waffles, and called the kids, then after they started eating said, "oh, do you want to come eat?" So I went in the kitchen, and he had melted butter for the waffles, but he had left the paper wrapper in the bowl of melted butter. Without thinking I just took it out and put it on a napkin to throw away, the tablecloth is plastic and it was on a napkin so it is not like it was going to hurt anything. He started fussing, "why did you have to take that out?" I said I didn't know, didn't really think about it. "Well I was going to take it out after we were finished eating, I didn't want a greasy spot all over the table." I said, " I put it on a napkin, there is no grease on the table so don't worry yourself over it." So then he said, "well why couldn't you just leave it in there? I was going to take it out later." I said, "it just looked kind of gross sitting in there, I'm sorry I took it out." Then I went to get a fork and noticed the bowl he had used to mix the pancakes was sitting on the counter - he had used all the mix in the bowl, just still had some left on the edges, so again, without thinking (I'm a mom and a wife, it's just second nature to me), I took the bowl and put it in the sink and filled it with water. He yelled at me, "why did you do that?" I said, "I am just soaking it so it will be easier to clean." "Well, I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO TOUCH IT!!" So I said, "Nevermind, I don't want to eat." I put my plate on the counter and left the room and started crying...I guess because I am sick I just can't take things as easily. So I was in the next room crying and he says, "why do you have to make such a big deal about everything?" and I said, "why do you have to be mean all the time - you don't have to talk to me like that, it is unacceptable for you to talk to me like that." So now he is mad because in front of the kids, I told him the way he talked to me was unacceptable. But I don't want them to see him act like that and think it is alright, so I am going to continue to say it is wrong. I dont want my daughter to think it is ok for her to be talked to that way or for my son to think he should talk to women like that. My husband's father has always talked to his mother that way and still does. They just had their 50th Anniversary, so he thinks it is ok...it is NOT ok. I am not going to just sit back and smile about it like she does. And that makes him soooo angry!
He had rented a room for us for New Year's Eve - but he has been so mean lately I don't want to go. It was expensive and is nonrefundable. I don't see the point of going there trying to act like we are so in love when we are not, so now I told him I am not going to go. Why torture myself being locked in a room with him for all that time??
He is the same one I wrote about a while back who scraped up my good cake pan and who thinks he may be an alcoholic. This past Friday, he took the day off from work, went hunting all day, was supposed to be back about 7...called me at 9:15 and said he drank too much and was not driving home. I was glad he wasn't going to drive drunk of course, but why does he have to keep going out getting drunk? He goes on several day-long hunting trips and can't call, sometimes he says because of no cell phone service and sometimes he says because he was so drunk he couldn't see to dial the number. |
