hey all. done working for the day. that earlier venting was done while working (oops!). i appreciate the feedback. i'll think about writing to MQ questions.
you know, i have looked hard for other jobs in the area, real jobs at hospitals and such. it seems like no one is hiring or i'm too old or whatever. i can't find a job anywhere. and i did look into other online MT jobs for other companies, but i have to have health benefits, and my guess is that most of these other similar companies are probably pretty much the same. (?) maybe. i did apply to one, just for part-time, to subsidize my current pathetic salary. and, there are true benefits for being at home and having the hours i currently have, so i'm trying to hang in here.
its just so hard. i (we) work really hard, can barely take breaks, and everything MQ does seems to make it harder and so they can pay us less (changing the incentives, the ASR pay being less, etc, etc)...the bar higher and higher. i'm just tired.
every time i get to where i really think i can't take it anymore, something happens that makes me think i should hang in here, things get better for a while, and i start feeling comfortable and getting a higher line count. i know the whole company is undergoing changes. but i feel really out of the loop. like someone mentioned maybe someone good will buy us? what? i am so clueless about anything that goes on around here. i just try to do my job and not bother anyone.
when i have e-mailed my supervisor, or talked to her on 1 or 2 occasions, i feel like she is so overwhelmed that she really can't help my concerns much. i get 1 or 2 word responses to my e-mails, or maybe even just a response to 1 question i asked, when i had asked 3, and i feel like i just don't want to bother her too much. i'm a big one for cutting people slack and trying to understand that they too are probably feeling similarly - though of course, they get paid by the hour.
i wouldn't mind all these constant changes if i got paid hourly. it would still be hard, but at least our livelihood wouldn't depend on us having to learn everything faster than possible. i'm good, but i don't have super powers, and it takes a while to get the hang of the ASR stuff, and reading through the client profiles, and blah blah...
anyway...thank you for listening and letting me rant. i've had no one to talk to. i live in my house, alone, and there is no one, and sometimes i just freak out.
so thanks.
those of you who sent me e-mails directly, i appreciate it, but i'm hesitant to write back because i'm really paranoid about MQ knowing what i'm saying....am i safe even here? does my e-mail address show up for anyone? am i just being silly?
i don't know.
anyway...thanks again.
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thanks - frustrated
